Friday, August 8, 2014

50 shades of abuse?

I read this book long before I was abused. I've been contemplating this post for a while now. All the hype about it is scary, it makes me upset to hear about it all.
Fifty shades of Gray according to Wikipedia "is notable for its explicitly erotic scenes featuring elements of sexual practices involving bondage/discipline, dominance/submission, and sadism/masochism (BDSM)."

I lived this book.

This spanking, bondage, it's sexy to think about feeling like the sex slave to a handsome man as he does what ever he wants to you. He wants you and you are totally captive to him and his naughty ways.

Sorry it's not like that.
Abuse is about control, not love.
Abuse is not romantic.
You won't understand how horrible this book is, till you live it.

Trying being afraid for your life, one false move and you're dead. The embarrassment. People think you're crazy. But you can't even see them anyway. Your friends, family. Isolation. You better not tell them. Bruises, pain, emptiness. You have no control of your life. You are a shell of a person an emotionless movie playing before you. You must not feel because then it will destroy you in the inside too. Tears you want to cry, but they won't come. There are things you have to worry about now you never had to.. Did I eat enough today? Or I will be punished. Am I aloud to hang out with her, talk to them? Or he will hurt me. I have to stay behind the grocery cart. Or he will humiliate me. I need to keep my hair not touching him, or he will cut it. Did it take me too long to get the cough medicine? or I am "going to get it now". He keeps swerving the car. Am I going to die now? He decides.

Abuse is not romantic.
You won't under how horrible this book is, till you live it.

 It's scary how many woman read this book and don't understand how horrible these things are. It is most popular with teenage girls and college girls, just think about that. According to RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network) 12% of girls in grades 9-12 said they had been sexually abused and 1 out of every 6 American women has been the victim of an attempted or completed rape in her lifetime.

Abuse is not romantic.
You won't under how horrible this book is, till you live it.

I lived this book.

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